vacuum

I feel like I am incapable of creating in a vacuum. Even though I KNOW I would get so much more accomplished if I could just sit at my notebook, I am so insecure I need some instant gratification of people reading my work. Maybe I'll start posting it here.
I guess it could be argued thats the whole point of writing-for someone to read whatever it is. But shouldn't I have the patience to re-read and offer up the best I can offer rather than works in progress?
I read some very inspiring work today, some Maxine Hong Kingston and Alice Walker. I had some deep thoughts but no notebook to write them in.
I keep thinking to myself I would be happier if I were writing regularly. That I wouldn't feel so clogged.